Growing up, I never quite felt like I belonged. I am an the only child to a single mother, and I don’t have any cousins. As a child, I was mostly interacting with adults, or with no one at all (enter fairies, '“imaginary” friends, trees, animals, etc). When I became of school age, being in group settings felt very foreign and uncomfortable to me. Not only did I not have the skills to communicate and be with so many people at once, but being a little baby empath and Reflector, it felt almost impossible. Throughout the years, I managed, and became a version of myself that I though I “should” be , or rather someone that I thought that people at school would like. But of course, even though I was fairly popular, how I was acting wasn’t authentic and thus didn’t create any authentic or long lasting connections. When I look back now, I realize how painful that was for little Nic, how many wounds and trauma were created by never feeling like I belonged (whether I wanted to or not).
In 2015, at the age of 24, I packed a single suitcase and moved to the US. This was a decision based both on wanting to be with my partner, but also one very much about desiring a life that just didn’t feel possible within the container and confines of the world as I knew it up to that point. When I arrived in Santa Cruz, I instantly felt at home. Each of the 1,566 days that I have lived here, I have felt held and cared for by this place. By the oceans, the cliffs, the redwoods. Like many people (creatives especially), I truly believe that the energy that is created by all of the nature around us here, supports and draws out that which is meant to be.
As held as I was by the natural environment around me, I still struggled to fit in and find community and belonging with others. Of course, I met a lot of people, made a close friend or two, but that was it. Until three years ago, via my first business Dépaysement Supper Club, I met my dear friend Jess, who at the time was about to birth an amazing creation in the Reflections Cannabis Retreat. This past weekend was my third year in a row providing the edible nourishment for the retreat. The community she has created has a heart centred summer camp vibe, is set in the beautiful Aptos Hills, and is an endless source of inspiration surrounding expressing your truth, and living that truth through various aspects of your life including your business. For the first time, I felt seen and heard and recognized for my true self. I felt that people were ACTUALLY seeing me for the mystical and magical person that I am. That person is a witch. That person feels everything and hold space with out knowing it. That person infuses magic into everything she touches. This was huge for me in naming myself, in coming to love who I am, and in feeling safe to say and show that person to the world.
Last year, post Reflections 2.0, I discovered via Instagram, The LUBO Collective. I reached out to Charlotte, the founder and creator. We instantly connected. At that time, it was October of last year, I had just experienced what would become The Lunar Tea Company. I was full of inspiration from Reflections, and had just been given the gift of the Tea Co. from source through my dreams. To say my first LUBO meet-up changed my life would be an understatement. LUBO is a space where you are invited to stand in your power and speak your truth to others who are also standing in their creative power and speaking the same truth. It is a community like no other, an infinite well of support. A space where others want to hear you story, share it, and support you.
It is through these two spaces, that I have been able to heal those childhood sisterhood and community wounds that I talked about at the top of this post. Community is so important. We can’t and should not “do it all” alone. We live in a world where there is so much competition. So much telling of how things should go, and how people should be. This is so inauthentic and far from how we innately are as beings. We are pack animals. It takes a village. In a community setting, there is no competition, Everyone is playing their own unique role. This is what I hope for our world. When we all come into our power and gifts (if you haven’t yet, you will, trust me it’s sitting right there for you to grab onto), we are able fill our own cups, while filling that of our neighbours. Community is helping someone else, while in turn helping yourself. Community is seeing and loving and shinning light on the gifts of those around you, and having that light reflected back onto you.
I think, when I take a step back, that’s what The Lunar Tea Co really is for me. It’s about community. It’s about sharing the gifts I was given with others. It’s my offering for all of us. As the heat of summer slowly gives way to what will soon be fall, I want you all to know that I am feeling into and sitting with ideas and ways to share more of those gifts and more of this space with you. Yeah it’s tea, but as you know, is also ritual, meditation, ancient wisdom, and now community. When all of you share your moon rituals with me via Instagram, it brings tears to my eyes. The tea is all over the world. Our community is literally global. Thank you for sharing in this journey with me. It is just as much about you as it is about me. It’s cyclic and expanding, and we are all apart of it.